But was she ready to leave limbo and return to the living? Not quite. I'll be right here." as Meredith walked away. I feel so relaxed and there's no pain," Meredith said to Cormac on the beach as Derek waited on the other side of the beach. If you're asking me.you should hear him out," Derek nudged her. The choice was hers: Would she fight? "That's up to you.
"You look perfect," Derek said when Cormac's conversations began to seep into her subconscious. Would she have the strength to fight her way back to life? Or would she stay on the beach and be reunited with Derek? Though Teddy and Cormac's initial try to get Meredith off the ventilator failed, Meredith was reaching a moment of no return. And suddenly, Derek appeared several feet closer. She writers letter in her journal, did you know that?" After that heart-rending revelation, Meredith squeezed her eyes shut to make him come closer. But Derek knew better. "Zola'a amazing, isn't she? She's just so brilliant. It's your beach," he said, before praising their adopted daughter, Zola. When Meredith pleads for Derek to "come closer," he reveals it's up to her to make that happen. "Hates pink and purple, loves brown and green, and gets enraged at the thought of anybody wanting to cut down a tree." Like mother, like daughter. And she's quick to anger, and quick to laugh, and she's smart, pensive and stubborn just like you," he marveled. That's when we're brought back to the hazy dreamscape with Meredith and Derek. "This place can't stand another loss," Cormac (Richard Flood) pleaded with an unconscious Meredith, when it was time for he and Teddy ( Kim Raver) to be slowly weened off the meds to see if Meredith could slowly come back to consciousness.
Haven't they all suffered enough? It comes to a head when it's confirmed.
When Bailey ( Chandra Wilson) revealed she went ahead and ordered autopsy results to find out if something went wrong when DeLuca went under the knife, Webber ( James Pickens Jr.) took issue with her decision to investigate further. When the action transitioned to Grey's Anatomy, the Grey Sloan Memorial Hospital docs were still in shock, trying to remember DeLuca as best they could. After spending all of Station 19 unable to scream her pain away, she finally let it all out when Maya turned on the sirens on one of the fire trucks parked in Firehouse 19 and joined Carina in feeling her sadness, loss and grief through their primal screams. That realization was enough to bring Carina to feel the desperate need to let out all the suppressed pressure she's kept inside, literally and figuratively, since DeLuca's death. Shockingly, he already knew - two days ago, in fact - and didn't bother to call her. It took encouragement and support from Maya (Danielle Savre) before she got the strength to finally call her father to inform him of DeLuca's death. Unable to come to terms with her brother's death, her raw grief was palpable right from the start as she struggled to make sense of everything.